This Time is Here — sara lynn lashbrook

This piece was written on July 16th…

What is here?

What is arising to be seen?

Time to dive in and do more work. Not that I have not been doing the work. This is necessary to reveal another level, to access another level. Both down, in regards to clearing and up in regards to elevating.

Now is the time. Not that before wasn’t. Not that I am forcing it or making something happen, no I am aware. I feel the call, I feel the invitation, the pull and I am heeding it.

There is a quickening. The pace is picking up.

This is what I wrote in my journal today:

The Goddesses are here, the Dasha Mahavidyas have rocked up and made their presence known. They are here, loving me, supporting me, gathering around me, bolstering me, holding me, loving me, encouraging my way on towards freedom and liberation.

This is it. This time has come to me. This awareness.

To no longer hold, set, be bound by limitations, ceilings, self-imposed, generated or accumulated over time confines.

Possibilities are vast and expansive and I seek opportunities to be around, inspired by others who have accessed these places, who know that they are real, who like H, encourages me to come along, to go further-knowing I have more in me, more to give, more to offer.

It is this that I meet myself, where I can push beyond what I (meaning my mind) thinks, what my mind “caps” as possible or far enough. I am dancing with this, this enough. Feeling good enough. Having enough. Being content and wanting more. Seeking, asking, calling in.

Not because I deserve it, not because I have done the work or put in the time or endured. No, not because anything.

Rather because it is here. It is possible. The time is ripe because I can see this now, this seeing is in the field of my awareness, consciousness.

I didn’t know this before; what I didn’t know I was not ready for. And since I was not ready for it, I could not see it. And now, I am ready because I know it is here, it is showing up in the field of my awareness, in the field of possibilities because I am ready. And because I am ready, I can see it. I can see the possibility. And with this possibility, with this awareness of its presence I am dancing.

I am seen by others because I see myself. The space, my work, my commitments, my energy, my intentions, my practices all of these have allowed me to meet myself in these ways. And now, because I know myself I can show up as my full self. Whole. Whole. Inclusive and being seen whole because I know myself as whole. Full.

I feel like a woman, whatever that means. In body. Embodied. Emotional. Sensual. Nurturing. Caring. Strong. Fierce. Loving. In service to hold. To hold others and myself in this grace of love.

Clarity is here.

So much is being offered.

All of which I receive joyously.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

How can folks see you if you do not allow yourself to see yourself?

How can folks see you fully if you do not allow yourself to see yourself fully?

It isn’t possible.

How can we ask others to know us if we do not know ourselves?