Full Moon In Capricorn with Shani Dev and the Sun in Cancer

I woke this morning, walked over to my desk, sat and began writing. It’s a full moon in Capricorn and a lot of stuff that has been lurking below the surface has risen. I have been envisioning a crocodile in a swamp, slowly lifting its head, revealing its eye and nostrils, reminding me what is here to be seen if I choose to face it. In Jyotish, Capricorn is Makara, represented by a crocodile or a goat with a beard like a zen master.

The crocodile comes from the prehistoric era and this sign, Capricorn is associated with the oldest planet Saturn. Oh, beloved Shani Dev. The crocodile can be feared for its bite, its power. It also represents capacity, what it has the tenacity for. It is a hard working sign, it goes all the way without tiring because it knows how to regulate and conserve its energy - aware of where it is putting its energy and how much it is spending. It is an earthy sign, grounded, not easy to shake.

It can also be confused, for crocodiles sleep out of the water. It spends it day in the water and sleeps on land at night- which can represent being emotionally confused at times, having an identity crisis. It can feel challenged to identify itself.

Embedded within it, this sign has a great impulse, desire to discover itself, longing for something to elevate it, inspire it. When Makara keeps going, pushing through, the goat has the capacity to become a unicorn. It has immense commitment to itself and its work- it represents hard work, staying power and the commitment to showing up. And it does this without drawing any attention to itself- like a crocodile in the water. It can be there and you may not even notice.

I have taken notice. I see the swamp that is resides in. I see the lower tendencies that it are drawing me towards- these feelings of being stuck, held in these patterns of self-negation and doubt. I also know that these same murky waters is the environment where the lotus thrives, where she rises up through the water and blossoms, revealing her beauty and fragrance. I am aware of this. I know this.

I find it fascinating that the moon is full, because she is receiving the light, fully receiving the light of the sun who is placed in the constellation Cancer. Yes, yes, Cancer, represented by the crab who is an adaptable creature, who adjusts and changes its habits to fit in the environment. The crab, with its hard shell and soft insides, this sensitive creature who resides on the bottom of its watery environment, gathering up all that it can get its claws on to. Yes, the crab that accumulates and collects, that holds on and doesn’t want to let go. The claws that have a tight grip, a tendency to hold on that shows their commitment is not shakable. Who resides in water, which is life giving and life sustaining, representing fertility, growth, expansion, nurturing, nourishing and healing.

Seems fitting that I was called to sit and write today, on this day when the full moon is here with the energies and gazes of Capricorn, Cancer, the Moon, the Sun, and Saturn- Beloved Shani Dev upon me, swirling around me. If you read the previous posts, it is all here, it has been coming to the surface for some time now. Hold. Bite. Grip. Dependable. Unshakable commitment. Transcend. Confused. Sensitive. Capacity. Tenacity. Steadfastness. Adaptable. Expansion. Growth. Healing. Nourishing. Nurturing.

Inviting me to soften, to loosen my grip, my tendency to hold on, to control. The seeking, the looking, the wanting. Inviting me to open up, to nourish myself, to heal, to nurture. To step beyond the patterns of the lower mind, the ever repeating known and meet the abundance that is here. To step into my power. This supreme act of devotion, of surrender, of trust.

Inviting you to join me,

Sara