My Newest Commitment
For the past three years I have been committed to a sadhana. I have made and upheld commitments to myself through a practice that I engage in daily. These commitments have ranged from 54 days, 45 days, 36 days, 27 days, 21 days, 12 days- one practice was 100 days. The practice can vary from a Kriya or Pranayama Set, a series of asanas or be mantra based, sometimes the practice would be a combination of these. Each practice, each Sadhana, each commitment I made would spontaneously arise. Either I would know which practice to take on based on an inner knowing or a message would come to me in the form of an opportunity that I would agree to and set forth.
My most recent sadhana came to an end on the night of January 17th. Since then, mantras have come into my headspace, stillness comes when I sit for puja, movement comes with I wake in the morning, but nothing has held me. Nothing seems to stick.
Until two days ago, when out of the void, came the words - commit to write on Wednesdays, commit to write about Education on Wednesdays.
It stopped me.
I usually write when I am moved to write, when something within me says write this down or put this in writing. I have explored a set writing time and writing for a certain period of time. At those times, the commitment stuck as long as it held me. I have been writing for a long while and as I explored different types of writing beyond my journal- be in here in this space, using certain strategies such a “lift a line,” or answering questions folks have asked me to get my ideas flowing, I have even explored audio recordings, to model the notion that I am talking to someone, engaged in a conversation or discussion about a certain topic. I began to figure out that my writing flowed not within preset or predetermined times or reduced to timeframes during the day, but rather is flowed when it flowed. I learned to accept this and to create space and time to be with wanted to come, to write or type when I was moved.
I was stunned. Shocked. Taken by surprise when I received this message, when I heard- commit to write about Education on Wednesdays.
I sat still. Hum. I responded. Okay.
I have learned to honor my inner voice and take action when it speaks, so last night I sat. I transcribed an audio recording from October 16, 2021 that I titled- Clarity in Regards to Wholeness Around Education.
Here are a few excerpts from this piece, that is a work in progress- as all things are. For nothing is static, nothing is set, all things continue to morph, grow and change with time. Including my understandings on the way things work, the rules that govern how things play out and my view.
We say, ah, the parent is the child’s first teacher.
I’d like to offer a different perspective
Rather
Life is a teacher and the child is a student and a teacher simultaneously
Seamlessly moving back and forth
Crossing from student to teacher
Teacher to student
Without them even knowing
Without their conscious awareness that this is happening
For this is their essence
The very essence of being
Learning
Growing
Evolving
Expanding
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It is here, in this space
where
Children learn to rely on themselves
The foundation on which they interact and
Encounter the world
This is how they explore throughout life
They try things out
They add this learning, incorporating it into their field
They drop it or store it away
And they begin to learn through these experiences
On and on it goes
And I commit to doing the same- to learn through these experiences, carrying myself on and on as I go.
Gladly,
Sara