Dots
When Jeanette and I get together, we get Comic Consciousness, as Jeanette has shared, “sometimes the ‘s’ just slips.” We are two unique expressions living life fully and often laughing along the way. We have many conversations, some which we have shared with each of you on Instagram Live. We feel called to share pieces of our exchanges with you. This is the first, in this form. May these words be an offering, may they land in the fertile ground of your being, may they serve and uplift.
An intimate Volition conversation from a deeper place within our hearts, all in the one and one in ALL. Together we hold space and heal.
An invitation, before you continue to read on, we invite you to gather a piece of paper and tool, create eight dots and connect them.
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“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. Because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart even when it leads you off the well worn path; and that will make all the difference.” Steve Jobs
Question: What arises when you hear this quote?
Jeanette: If we follow life’s dots in an explicit order it is easy to be swayed by the winds of the disconnected mind + external chaos. Can you see the patterned dots of your life?
Sara: Yes! Those Dots. Marks. Markers. Spots. Points. Indicators.
Alone they seem random, appearing as dots and marks. With reflection, with time, when we look back at the events that provide the dots, the points, we begin to connect the dots. We begin to make connections. We make these connections within contexts as they become known. We connect these dots once something is known, once something is revealed and then, with this knowing, we look back and see that these events, as evidenced by these markers, these points, were all happening for a reason. At the time we may have not known why everything was happening, it is only with time that the reasons, the alignment, the connections between the dots becomes known.
Jeanette: Yes, one seemingly random dotted event. Connecting backwards, not forward. I often get so caught up in the “what's next” of doing or the cycles of “over thinking.” I spent many years feeling that these dotted life events happened to + against me. Running and making myself so busy, avoiding + numbing the pain. One cannot change themselves unless they face themselves, a deeper dive into the dot. Standing still upon my dot, I was able to rise + observe that this thought was from a place of fear. And although I felt stuck, once faced I could move. Through practice I realized that life is for and through me. I found stillness and forgiveness. Only in the pain did I find the Volition +courage to learn to be still, face the fear and stand in the darkness not running from the many dots.
Question: If you were to draw your dot pattern, how would it look?
Sara: There is space now between these dots, the space which provides the opportunity to see the dots as individual indications, as separate marks. So, we often connect these dots with lines, looking only in a linear fashion. We all know of the connect-the-dot worksheets in which we begin with one and follow a sequential order to indicate, to reveal an image or picture. What if we did not go in order? What if we chose to make squiggly lines or loops between the dots? What if we choose to not follow the linear sequence of numbers and begin connecting dots in our own way? What would we see? What would be revealed?
For me? My dots? They are scattered. Not a random scatter though, blown by the wind and it is only from here that I am able to be, I do not think about the next dot, where I will be next or what will happen next. For those are constructs of the mind and the mind is what I am learning to override, I am learning to live from my heart. Trusting and surrendering that all is as it is meant to be. And I can say that with confidence, we have a deep sense of knowing as I look back to my life, to events of my life that felt huge, that felt scary, events that forced me to look within, to see myself, to face myself and HERE I AM. It all works out; it is designed to. My life has not been linear. I attempted to force it to be that way and when I surrender and trust there are big splats (some of which you have witnessed) and there are times when I fly from one dot to the next or drag my feet or hop or twirl or swirl or dive.
Jeanette: Definitely not linear. Nature is not intended to follow a linear script. Rather, life is designed to be lived fully. We are invited to be active participants in life, to co-create with life.
Yes, Lived, authentically + fully.
Question: It is interesting that this quote speaks only about connecting to dots of the past and not of the future, what do you think this means?
Sara: There is an invitation in every moment and at each dot, to show up and be ourselves. Show up and trust that there is a path for us, that we, ourselves are our own path. Our choices now in the moment leaves a trace, our actions make an impact, they leave a mark. While we do not know what is being created, while we do not know what will be revealed, we KNOW it will be far greater than anything we have ever seen or anything that we could have imagined, because that is already known. And the invitation of life is to embrace and go to the unknown.
Jeanette: Yes. Agree with this as an invitation to explore. To discover and remember our value + to live each dot fully. For those that read this, know that if your “dot” path doesn’t make sense, or if there is currently madness or torment, confusion or if you are tired. You are not alone, We too hid, ran, tripped and smashed our dots + for so long stood in dot darkness. Know that you have the power to stand, lead and rise. That the learned lessons of the past can + will fuel you. What dots are you creating through your actions in this very moment? Only the dots of the past link but we are not bound.
May your life be an expression of love rather than a pursuit of dots. The music is playing, the dots are forming so dancing. You have the power to shift the dot patterns-are you willing?
Yogis Fully living this dot,
Sara + Jeanette
Volition Studios
Post Script from Sara….
The morning after this exchange, dots arrived to me in my morning meditation. I was shown that the dots, once you zoom in become blurred, the lines between the dots become blurred. When you zoom out, which is a reference point you offer to me often, from this aerial perspective the dots revealed me, the image of me.