You Enjoy Myself
Feeling called to type, to write, to leave a trace of what has been unfolding.
Tomorrow marks the transit of Rahu and Ketu (the North and South Nodes or ecliptical patterns). Rahu is transiting out of Aries and into Pisces, while Ketu moves from Libra and enters Virgo. This is a significant transit for me, they are entering signs that are in significant houses in my Jamna Kundali or birth chart.
Rahu and Ketu make moves from one sign to the next every 17 months. So this transit marks the end of a 17 month cycle. Which has been FULL on, if you have been reading anything that I have written or if you know me. 17 months ago was May 2022. I was in Cornwall, England for a powerful eclipse, one that sent me on a trajectory that I can only see now. *More on this later, it, meaning all of the threads are coming together and I am gathering all of them, they have been woven and I am beginning to see the picture. I’d like to sit with this a bit more before I share it all here.
I posted “Now is the How,” about the first eclipse of this season, the solar eclipse, on the day of the new moon, which I was unable to “see” since it was raining here. I chose to be outside in nature during the time of that eclipse and received the messages “Be Bold. Stand out. Be Seen. Radiate. Shine. Allow yourself to become known.” That evening, during my practice, the words “Let my voice be HEARD!” were shared.
Yesterday was the lunar eclipse and I had grand plans to be in silence, in a silent practice. Alone. It became clear to me, early on that this, my intention and plan, was going to take on different vibe. Rather than alone in silence, in mediation, I was “tailgating” after completing a corn maze with my family, enjoying a cupcake and a root beer! Yep, from the field of silence to a grassy field with a bunch of parked cars, surrounded by some of my family, enjoying a decadent cupcake made by my sister, sister and enjoying a cold root beer after “getting lost” in a maze for an hour. It was there, from that space where we watched the full moon rise over the trees, full and bright, radiating her glory.
I continue to be amazed by the light of the moon. It appears to be absorbed, she appears to take in the light, keeping some for herself and sharing it simultaneously, as she reflects it back to us, shining so bright. I am in awe, awe as I watch her. Utter awe (rather I could type, udder awe, since the corn maze theme was Maids-a-Milking). There I was, surrounded by cars and a bunch of people. The only silence was the silence of my inner being. And that is not only what was there. What was also arising was joy, delight, pleasure, enjoyment and fun. FUN. This inner peace that comes from the silent field of my heard. This place of ease and peace of me being me, and having FUN!
Gone was the story of needing to sit in silence, in practice during the eclipse portal. Present were the delights and pleasures of life; I was having FUN. F.U.N.
Later, as I was driving in the car, I heard You Enjoy Myself. It is a song from Phish that is a lot, so much fun to dance to. Really fun to dance to. I turned it up loud, following along as it builds and I was reminded that I had also heard that song earlier in the morning. Different show (it was from a live recording), same song. That is when it DAWNED on me. Yes, YEs, YES! I am meant to ENJOY MYSELF. I am being invited to live fully and dynamically. Enjoying life. Living life.
There I was in the car, under the watchful loving gaze of the FULL moon, within the energy of the eclipse and I realized that this was the message. The message is to drop all attachments to what I think, how I think, how I plan and ‘want’ things to be and ENJOY LIFE FULLY. To be present with what is being offered in the moment, to not let it pass me by or try to control it and to fully surrender to the present, the gift of the present moment.
Ketu, Mars and the Sun. Jupiter, Rahu and the Moon.
Me and Bhairavi.
Exactly where we are meant to me.
Hari Om.
S.