What More is There to Say? — sara lynn lashbrook

This was typed in the early morning on January 14th.

It’s 5:06 am.

I got up to leave an audio recording at 4:46….and then was called to type.

As I opened my computer, the EarthWord SkyWord page was open. I receive a monthly newsletter from Lyn Dalebout called EarthWord Sky Word that give insight into what is happening in the celestial realm. This is what is said:

Last Quarter Moon

With the last quarter moon, you release what has been and simultaneously prepare for what will be as new desires perpetually arise in the next SolLunar Cycle.

Last Quarter Moon: Sun in Sagittarius square moon in Virgo: Sat January 14

This is the last day the Sun transits astronomical Sagittarius, entering Capricorn tomorrow. Review goals or visions you may have set for yourself or reflect on events from the past, making peace with a recent step you took if need be. Take care of your health and the needs of the body under Virgo’s influence.

This builds Fri January 13, crests Sat January 14, dissipates Sun January 15.

As I typed Sagittarius I smiled. Dhanu, the archer. Ah yes. It all makes sense and is crystal clear…

I have been awake for some time now. I woke initially to use the bathroom. As I stood, I recalled an image that was in my head, vision while I slept or rather while I was laying in my bed. There was an image of cabinets, up high on the wall, under the ceiling. The cabinet doors were off and the space behind the cabinets was open, there were no dividers of the space. It was clear that what appeared was taking place during a renovation of a home and that these cabinets were located behind a wall, revealed once the wall was removed, demolished, taken down. I am not sure, but what I think I saw written in black block lettering was the word NEXT. I say I am not sure, because I when I was recalling this back, the words appeared and I am not sure if my mind placed them there or rather that my mind made them out to be the letters NEXT.

I was intrigued and told myself to record it when I woke. Which is what I did. Got my phone to leave an audio recording and then began typing this…That was some time ago and I have not gone back to sleep. Instead my mind began to travel…

Five nights/mornings ago now I woke with Neil Diamond singing Hey Now, Hey Now in my head. I knew the cadence of the song, but I could not recall any other words or the name of the song. A quick internet search landed me on the song Cracklin’Rosie. I laughed when I heard the first few lines….

I played the song on repeat and a few days later created time to look at the actual lyrics and record them in my journal. Just now, within this past hour or so of being awake and having my mind travel it occurred to me that (I know from reading the lyrics and hearing the song that what I thought to be Hey Now, was actually Play it now) that the message being delivered through the song was Play it Now- meaning Play your Song, the song that you are here to deliver, what you are meant to do. Put your purpose, your dharma to action. Which is why I laughed when I saw the EarthWord SkyWord note from Lyn on my screen just now. Dhanu, Sagittarius in the archer, the one that sets forth, releases the arrow with single pointed focus. Dhanu, half horse, half person. Sagittarius the sign placed in my fourth house.

My mind continued wandering, processing what is swirling around me in the relative world. The phrase, “don’t bleach red flags” came. This is a teaching from a teacher, mentor, guide, friend Carol. She shared this with me many moons ago and with all timeless teachings, it continues to reveal new layers to itself and continues to be relevant today. In this particular case I am referencing noticing internal signals, signals in my body, signals that my body gives me. Signals that I am learning to attend to, to acknowledge and act on.

So, as I laid in bed about an hour ago, I was formulating how I can release a commitment that I made that does not serve me, a commitment that does not feel good. Originally, it did, which is why I said yes. Then the red flags came and I kept over riding them, I kept bleaching them remaining fixed to the commitment I agreed to, to honor and keep my word. It was in this space where I was crafting what I was going to say to release myself from the commitment- which as I ponder, I never actually locked in the commitment, it was pending, never fully set or fixed. Yet, I verbally agreed and took steps towards it and a huge thread of mine is keeping and honoring my word. So, as I lay in bed working through various ways to convey that I am out and how I want to ensure that the person in the middle that connected me to the opportunity to make the commitment, is not affected, it occurred to me that it is not about her or them. It is about me. So when I heard myself say, “I am at home with myself,” I smiled a wide, sly smile. Oh my goodness. Oh my goodness. What more is there to say? What is left to say?

I am at home with myself.

These words came from me. Yes, I have heard them before. Yes, they have been shared with me. Yes, they came from me. From the dark recesses of my mind. From the depth of my heart. They emerged and were spoken.

I am at home with myself.

And you know what? You know why I was smiling a sly smile? I didn’t even know until I read the opening lines to the EarthWord SkyWord piece about the Sun in Sagittarius, Moon in Virgo. Sagittarius is placed in my 4th house. The house of the mother, the mother’s place. The house of relationship with myself. The house of the relationship with myself.

When I read charts for folks, the question I offer, the invitation that is offered through the lens of the 4th house is How much at home are you within yourself? As all relationships stem from yourself, your relationship with yourself. For you, me, I am the common denominator. I am the constant.

How much at home am I with myself?

The words emerged from the depth of my being:

I am at home with myself.

Jai Ma

Jai Guru Dev

Om Namaha Shivaya

Sara