No Joke
No Joke. No Joke. I cannot make this up.
I posted the piece about remembering 40 minutes ago. Truth be shared, there was a moment, a slight moment of hesitation before I shared it, because it is an intimate piece, a piece that is deeply intimate to me and my journey. And in being intimate, while being intimate, I am being fully honest. See, I write for myself. I write to process and to connect, to understand and construct, I write to remember. I write to be in awe. I write to leave traces of these magical gifts life continues to offer me. I write and at times, I share what I write here.
So, 40 minutes ago I shared the piece When We Remember. I clicked post, stood up and began to prepare food. I pulled the tomato pie that I made last night from the refrigerator and placed it in the oven to warm. As I began to cut vegetables, I felt called to listen to a satsang, a wisdom talk, from my teacher Anand Ji. I scrolled down through the many choices on Sattva Connect and landed on a piece from September 16, 2015 titled Self Healing.
This is what I heard as I chopped, stopping to put down the knife and listen in awe:
“When there is the idea that something wrong is happening, then the self-healing process is difficult because there is anxiety present in the being who is trying heal. With the presence of anxiety there is a natural depletion of energy. With self-healing, we have to master the art of self-acceptance.
No matter where you are in this moment in your life, no matter what is going on, is where you are meant to be. That the whole intelligence of the universe, mysteriously, has brought you to that moment, or to that experience. For you to experience that moment the way it is, there has to be billions of variables to be where you are.
When you begin to absolutely accept yourself, irrespective of any challenge that you might be experiencing in the moment, there is a natural state of peace that arises. This state of peace is far stronger than the state of anxiety you experience when you feel there is something wrong happening to you or something bad happening to you, in you, in that state you are weak, you cannot self-heal.
For you to self-heal there has to be an inner peace, a deep state of peace has to be there without any anxiety, without any resistance or frustration.
Cause usually whenever something physically, slightly that happens, the first response of the human psyche is to get panic or to get into anxiety or constantly focus on what is wrong…’ I have this,’ and there is a natural identification that starts to happen where you feel dis-ease, meaning you are no more at ease. When you are no more at ease, you become the dis-ease itself.”
Anand Ji is putting to words the experience that I had the morning when I woke and accepted my choice. I did feel ease. I did not feel self-hatred or experience self-violent thoughts. There was an ease. There was an acceptance. In the piece When We Remember, I wrote:
“So when I woke up the morning after having not one, but four glasses of wine and not feeling my best self, I was pleasantly surprised that the thoughts in my mind were thoughts of gratitude, thoughts of acceptance.
Ah, this is arising for me to see what is still here. What still lingers beneath the surface. The desire is still here. Among the clearing, the cleansing, the removing, the releasing, this desire is being uncovered for me to see. For me to see. FOR ME TO SEE.”
He shares, “When you begin to absolutely accept yourself, irrespective of any challenge that you might be experiencing in the moment there is a natural state of peace that arises.”
Yes. Yes. Yes.
You see, I cannot make this is up. This is not a joke, or is it all a joke. I am laughing out loud.
I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
Giddy with delight and IN LOVE with the universe.
Sara
